It’s just 6:45 in the
morning and we are gathered in the dimness of the abbey church waiting for
Matins and Lauds to begin. The monastic choir is quite full; yet, one senses a
stillness that is almost tangible. It’s not totally quiet, though – there are
coughs, the rustling of papers and the shuffling feet of the late arrivals. The
stillness is something different. It’s like a scale that has just come into
balance. This stillness is equipoise. At the same time, however, it is packed with
energy, like runners waiting for the starter’s gun to fire. The monks await in
readiness the start of Morning Prayer.
All at once, the stillness is broken. A bell
begins to ring. It tolls three times – the Angelus. The kneelers fall into place
and the monks drop themselves onto them, some effortlessly, some with the
weariness of age. “The angel of the Lord declared unto Mary . . .” Why are we
doing this, anyway? This is not meant for us. The Angelus came into existence
for the layfolk to pray, while the monks and nuns were praying in church. It
was intended to be substitute for lay people to take the place of the Liturgy
of the Hours that the professionals were reciting. Three times a day – morning,
noon, and evening – the bell summoned the faithful to this prayer. They would
stop where they were and bow their heads.
The familiar image of a young girl at silent prayer comes into the
mind’s eye. “and she conceived of the Holy Spirit. . . Hail, Mary, full of
grace”
The bell tolls again,
three times. I sneak a quick look around me at all the heads bowed in prayer.
“Behold the handmaid of the Lord.” We are beginning this day recalling the very
beginning of the story, the greatest story ever told, as it is known. The
Almighty is asking this young girl, the chosen of the Chosen, to become the
unwed mother of her people’s messiah. “Let it be done to me according to your
word.” She accepts and say ‘yes’. Does she know? How can she? But she trusts.
This day has barely begun. Do I know? How can I know what will happen today. I
mutter the words, “Let it be done to me according to your word.” I want to
believe and put my trust in God alone. In reality, I’m thinking about all the
things I have to do today.
A third time the bell
rings three times. “And the Word became Flesh”. In the silence of love, the
Creator of all things visible and invisible fills the womb of this young
virgin. In the iconography of the event, the full of grace bows her head in
acceptance. Along with my brothers, I bow my head in wonder and adoration of
this ineffable mystery. “and dwelt among us.” The God of heaven and earth has
become one of us and dwells among us now, this day, here with these monks from
across the country. This is my prayer as we finish, “Help me to see You in these
fellow human beings, these incarnations of God’s love. Hail Mary, full of
grace.
The bell begins its
final peal. Nine times. “Pour forth we beseech Thee, O Lord, thy grace into our
hearts. Yes, Lord, pour your grace into my heart. I need your grace to love
these creatures, all creatures, as you love them. Oh, I can be nice to them
well enough. But, can I see You in them? Love You I them? Worship You in them?
“that we, to whom the mystery of the incarnation was made known by the message
of an angel. . . “
All goes still
again. We continue to kneel in silent
prayer as the first rays of the morning sun pierce the stained glass. Poised.
Ready to begin our sacrifice of praise. Somewhere in the distance, the abbot
knocks. Obediently we rise to our feet. From the other end of the room, a young
monk intones: “O Lord, open my lips.” The silence of the night is broken and;
once more, this band of black-robes takes up the fragile chorus, “and my mouth
shall show forth your praise.”
